Still feeling it

Right now it's 10:28pm and I'm ready for bed, typing this on my phone. 

Well, actually I'm not totally ready for bed. You see, I'm sitting up watching episodes of Royal Pains on OnDemand waiting for Mr. Big to get home. 

He's working late tonight and will have to work even earlier tomorrow. 

I never expected this to be honest. I never thought that this would be my life. 

Remember how yesterday I wrote about being content? Well, this is part of being content. 

This is a new life different from the future I envisioned when I was 16, 25, even 28.

But it is a good life.  

I have six beautiful children who fill my heart with so much love and joy. They teach me new things every day even when they are not around. Their smiles and laughter remain in my memory and their stories are on repeat holding me off until my next time with them. They are an integral part of my life and I count the stars with the miracles they have given me and the kisses and smiles they share with me. 

I have a man by my side who has given me a new lease on life and helped me find the me that I thought was long gone. He kisses me every morning before he leaves for work and smiles a smile that melts my heart. He takes care of me and allows me to take care of him. 

Which brings me back to where I am now, contentment. 

I'll sit here and probably fall asleep on the couch waiting for him to come home. 

I'll probably dream of my time with my children to come this weekend and then wake up to see Mr. Big arrive home and usher me to bed and kiss me goodnight. 

And he will smile at me and I will feel content in knowing once more that things are good and I'm blessed. 

Feeling Content

All I can say, is I am feeling content and that things are falling into place in better ways than I imagined.

There are still hurdles to jump and mountains to climb but for now, I'm content....

I took this picture when I was on my way to go pick up my babies on Sunday

Good things people! Good things!!

Okay, I know I said I was back but then I didn't post anything...

Well, that's because it has been crazy busy (in my head, in life, everywhere) and a good reason for it!!

One thing is that what I was thought wasn't going to happen actually is!!

A few weeks ago I posted about going back to school and some of you I spoke with found out it was for nursing.

Then on FB and Twitter I posted that it fell through because the advisor that I spoke with gave me the wrong information and that the only night classes were the co-requisites not the core classes - those are only during the day and well, I work full time so unless I wanted to be a stripper and work at night, that was not an option.

Well, I was crushed and wondering WTF am I going to be when I grow up?!

And then I get the email that I thought was never going to come...

The one telling me that my real dream (nursing was dream #2 since #1 didn't seem feasible anymore) is within my reach.

Where I live there are limited to no resources but we do have ABA therapy - and in order for me to join the ranks of a BCBA I would need to go back to school which wold then require supervisory hours - well, at first there was no way to get supervisory hours unless I wanted to move to the main land - then we found a way (the university and I) and then the paperwork fell through and I got discouraged but then...the email came.

The BCBA that was willing to do the supervisory hours for me when the time comes turned all of her paperwork in to the university!!!

This means I can go back to school and finally get the degree and certification that compliments my other degree and make a difference that I want to make!!

Woo Hoo!!

And then on top of it all, on the same day actually I was given the opportunity to start a local Train 4 Autism chapter in my area!!

ME!!

I couldn't believe it!!

So my mind has been spinning with excitement and all different kinds of good natured emotions and happy happy joy joy that I haven't been back to blog.

But I am here I am reading - even though I'm not commenting on everything - I am here.

I promise to be better since the high is finally calming down.

Oh, do me a favor - go ahead and go to my new page for T4A and like it and spread the word??

Here - Train 4 Autism: Southernmost Chapter

Oh and you know what is even cooler? I get business cards!!! That means its real and official peeps!! I've never had business cards - like EVER!!!

Here, have a drink and celebrate with me!!

"Woman Holding Cocktail Glass" by Ambro