Dear my wonderful children,
I am writing to tell you that I love you! Eternally, will always love you!
I know that right now it is a hard time for you. You don't know which way is up and you are struggling to find your way.
You are hearing so many things about your life and your family.
You don't know who is right and who is wrong.
You are missing me and are afraid to admit it for fear of not being loyal to your family at home.
I want you to know something; something very important.
Love is ever growing and there is never too much love to give to someone. I am always going to be your mother and love you for every day of my life and beyond. I might not be by your side every day but that does not take away the fact that all six of you are my number one priority and I count the seconds until you can be by my side again. Even if its for a short while.
You see, I have a lot of love for you. Every day that I am with you my love grows. On those days when I am not with you, my love grows 100 times faster because I need you in my life so much that my heart just pulls and calls for you.
You, my beautiful children, are the greatest gift in the world. I could not imagine a life without you.
Your smiles are contagious.
Your laughter is the cure to everything that ails me.
Your hugs are my kryptonite.
When I hear you argue about calling me mom, momma, or mommy it warms my heart. You can each call me whatever you want because I will answer to it all.
Living so far away from you is killing me and trying to work visitation out is not easy given the current living arrangements but it does not mean that I will give up. I will never give up on you, NEVER.
I want you to know that no matter what happens, we are always a family and will always be a family. We are just a different family. But we are a family with a lot of love to give and share. We are a family that will make it through all of this hard stuff.
I can't wait to see you soon! I can't wait to see your eyes light up and hear you giggle as I tickle you.
I can't wait to breathe in your smell as I give you the tightest hugs that you always tell me are too tight.
I can't wait to hold your hands and kiss you to pieces.
I can't wait to tell you to stop doing something that you are not supposed to do.
I miss you. I love you.
Mom (aka Momma, Mommy)
(Writer's Note: I just want to make it clear to those new readers that my children live with their father, step-mom, and step-sister. They are not in any form of foster care/adoption. Our separation is due to divorce and a long distance move. Thank You.)