The day to day, the non-stop worrying and jumping and everything that you as a parent do to stay on alert and give your child what he/she needs can sometimes be exhausting and draining. You sometimes pray for bedtime just to get a break and even then its not a real break because you're still on alert in case your child starts to walk out of his/her room or gets sick in the middle of the night.
It never ends.
Even for me - and my kids live full-time with their dad & step-mom.
On visitation days I cram activities, discipline, education, and therapy all into a few hours. When they are not with me I'm constantly checking my phone for updates or making sure I have signal in case of an emergency.
So much that I had an anxiety episode this passed week because my old cell phone was not working and I was scared something with the kids was going to happen and they wouldn't be able to reach me.
I have since replaced the phone - I am officially an iPhone user now - goodbye Android!!
Well, back to the point...
Autism never ends for the families - no matter where the children are, it never ends.
But this weekend I was reminded of the good side of autism.
Yes, there is a good side.
I love watching Silly spin. He is just content in his little world. Did you see that smile on his face?! It was priceless!! That is the innocence and perfection of autism.
And then there is this...
Isn't it amazing how he can do this? Buddy can script any episode of any television show (generally though it is Thomas and Friends), word for word, with perfect rhythm - he even makes the train sounds (I bet you didn't catch that did you?). It puts me in awe every time! -- the video was actually longer but I couldn't email the whole thing from my phone so I had to send myself a shortened version. I'll try to get the full one up soon.
Then you have Monkey who just laughs with abandon at the silliest of things and wants to learn everything that is going on around him.
And Bug who just draws and draws and can tell you all about the different Jagers from Pacific Rim and the sharks and dinosaurs and so many other things. He is a pool of knowledge.
Yes, autism is not all negative...even when it seems like it is, its not.